Gold-Digger

There’s this popular misconception that living for God means that we will have everything our hearts desire. But sometimes our hearts desires don't line up with God. So what do we do?

I need a sugar daddy

This past year I went through the process of losing so many things. I saw all of my plans fail and I didn't know what was next. As a result, I allowed seeds of unbelief to grow into bitterness. By this I mean that I began to indulge in negative thoughts so much so that I thought to myself "well what's the point of trying to do things the right/God way." You see, although I had claimed to have surrendered my life to Christ, God had to work in my heart (and continues to do so) to rid me of all the bad habits I picked up while I was living far from Him. One of those bad habits was throwing tantrums and resorting to sinful measures when I didn't get what I wanted. Yes, adults do throw tantrums in their own way. At times, if something didn't go my way, I would try to force, manipulate, or charm my way into getting what I wanted or thought I needed.

But you see, I learned real quick that I couldn't charm or manipulate God. Those things don't work on Him. He knows our hearts. So although we are human and there are times our hearts contend with God or want to, it's so important to remember that He is God, not a sugar daddy who must dish out the goods because we showed up. The beautiful thing is that He's a Father who is protective over you which is why you don't get everything you want. God doesn't care to give you everything you want for the sake of making you happy, just as any father wouldn't give his child candy for breakfast, lunch and dinner just to make him happy. God doesn't want to spoil you rotten, He wants to preserve you.

Isn't it funny how sometimes we dig a hole for ourselves and then we stick our hand out for help to get out of the hole and expect God not only to rescue us but to pretend we never dug the hole in the first place. Now, God is merciful and loving and He will definitely help when you ask, but consequences cannot be avoided altogether. I had dug a hole, sown some seeds, spent some money, gotten into some relationships, moved around all without God's help or approval (because at the time I wanted nothing to do with God). Then, fast forward a few years I asked God to come into my life again and there I was with a dry harvest expecting good fruit for some bad seeds.

Harsh reality of sin

All along I had been working on me, "getting mines", YOLO'ing it out without God and I was left depleted. Imagine a child who has an assignment/task and instead of doing that he/she goes out to play and does everything his/her parents warned them against. They finally come home because they're hungry, except not only are they hungry, they are dirty, beaten up, hurt, traumatized, etc. and the child now has 1 hour instead of 3 to complete the assignment they had. This is us when we come back to God; He will accept us, cleanse us, forgive us and allow us to stay in the room he has for us, however, now we come back home with all this baggage (i.e. pain, trauma, resentment, old habits, etc.) to unload. I am here to tell you and promise you that sin breeds the worst kind of baggage whose effect run so deep it changes your very own perception. Thankfully there's nothing God can't heal us from.

So when I came to Jesus, it was pruning time. Hence, my "losses". I had to surrender and I continue to surrender areas in my life which show to need cleansing and healing.

I don’t want to discourage you by telling you that you won't get what you want at all in this life because that's not true. The Word of God does say that He will give you the desires of your heart but take note of these scriptures:

• “Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.” -Matthew 6:33

• “Take delight in the Lord, and He will give you the desires of your heart.” -Psalm 37:4

God wants us to seek and take delight in Him. When we are near Him, our desires begin to line up with God’s heart because an encounter with Jesus changes you. See 2 Corinthians 5: 17. You go from sugar daddy to Daddy, the one who will give you what He knows to be best for you.

My understanding is that God wants a relationship with us such that we walk close to Him and get to know Him. We can't charm Him, play Him or follow a formula to get Him to move how we want. God pruned my life so that I could remember that He is God over my life and if I claim to believe that, this means I can trust Him with what He has for my life. And I'm so glad he's not like a sugar daddy and actually cares for a genuine relationship and not just a relationship based off of exchange of services. So no more forcing anything or crying over what I do or don't have.

This is the healthiest relationship you will ever have so I urge you to get to know Him. The more you know Him, the more you'll love Him. As you come near to Him you'll desire to obey Him because you trust Him and you don't want to be far from Him because you understand that sin separates you from God and what's the point of a relationship if you live completely separate lives? No more trying to charm God, let's surrender into this great love.

💛 Luce

TAKE AWAYS :

1. We can’t charm or manipulate God into getting our way.

2. We will inevitably reap what we sow. What seeds are you sowing?

3. God knows and wants what's best for us, do you believe that?

4. Sin hurts us & it separates us from God.

5. Living for God is a surrender; He wants our heart.